The Inside Out

Tomorrow will be a big day for me.

I’m trying something new.

I am always excited to try new things and this time is no different…except I’m pretty afraid. Fasting is something I’ve never done before, and as my husband is very aware, I can be quite moody when I haven’t eaten. When my blood sugar drops, so does my attitude! I’ve been in a church that has all fasted together before, twice actually, but both times I was pregnant and couldn’t fast (I was having trouble gaining enough weight anyway, so both of my doctors said it was a “no go” for me.). This time it’s different. Columbia Church is different. Since signing on for the inception of this awesome new church, we’ve discovered that in so many ways. This special Sunday is one of those ways. We’re going to be taking up our first offering and giving half of it away. Yes, half. It’s called the Miracle Project. And the money is going to some awesome places: the Jubilee Academy in Columbia and Rwanda Clean Water in Africa. A school for needy children and a culture with no clean water. This is huge. So the leadership of the church asked everyone to fast and prepare for the big Sunday. See http://columbiachurchonline.com if you want to know more about this fast, the Miracle Project or Columbia Church. Ok, I thought…I’ll finally get to do it. Jesus did it. Tons of people in the Bible did it. They received clarity, answered prayers, growth through testing and lots of other things, so this is a good thing right? But now it’s the night before we start, and I’m a bit fearful. I don’t want to fail (but I don’t want to pass out either!). I really think I can do this. The hardest part will definitely be resisting the popcorn when we see “The Princess and the Frog” tomorrow. I’m praying tonight for growth and learning through it.

And I’m praying Columbia Church’s big Sunday isn’t just big, but God-sized.

So tonight didn’t quite go as planned. Actually not a single thinng I had in the plan actually happened. Not one. If you know me at all, I am a list maker and planner type person. And I particularly love to mark thing off my lists and my see my plans go perfectly. Not tonight! We were supposed have our first launch group meeting with a new group tonight ( If you don’t know what I’m talking about go to Columbia Church and see the awesome work Gods about to bring to Columbia. ), but about 30 minutes before everyone was supposed to come Princess Sarah says “Mommy, my throat hurts”… Not good. Fever 101. Not a drop of Tylenol or motrin to be found. And her ear is draining.

Ok. I start on mommy mode. I cancel the other kids that were supposed to play tonight and get the kids settled in front of a movie. Scott can host the group an I’ll scurry to walmart (why did they put that thing so close to my house!), grab up some meds and feel better prizes and be back in time to meet the new group. But only one person came.

As I go out the door I realize that I am FRUMPY!!! Majorly frumpy! And the sky is about to drop right on top of my head with enough water to drown a whale. Fantastic.

I rush into walmart and try to be polite to the two zillion people in that store (and never forget that the 10 most aggrivating people in your nearest vacinity are in walmart…and most likely in line in front of me). Back outside in a flash. Still not raining. Good. As I come around the corner completely frumping on myself, I glance up to see the most beautiful rainbow.

Ok God. I’m focused. Thanks for the reminder. I needed that.

Oh, and I love you too.

[as I pulled out of the walmart parking lot, the bottom dropped out. But I was already in the car! Then Noah called to see if I needed a ride.]